moody

sometimes... i really scare that i will get depression... everyday of my life is just college then home... when read all those people post going where to have fun, shopping or what... i feel envy because i do not have these... i am just like a clown in my life... is wearing a mask in front of people... the smile is so fake... this make me realized that no matter how... family will be the only 1 who are supporting and care me always... and you... you are the strength when i m weak... thanks for being with me...

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my nub nub face... wakaka...
last few days was busing for PTPTN loan... a lot of documents had to certify... and a lot of troubles were getting on me... haiz... but finally it had been settled... when i saw my document and there was written there 'meninggal dunia' on the status of my mum's name... my heart was like poked by something... then tears were dropping down... i just realized that i still miss and love her the same as when she was alive... i'm happy that i born in this family... ^^
a lot of assignment and i am in a lazy mood... hope all will go smooth...
miss my baba... july will go back n celebrate birthday with him... erm... i think i wan save money from now on then will buy him a cake...^^ because seem like we never celebrate his birthday with cake... wakaka... i want give him surprise... huhu~

加油...

刚放学呢...想了一整晚...虽然很不开心...但已经想通了...既然我选择了对自己及喜欢的人坦白...不管结果是怎样我都会接受的...虽然自己有着不好的过去...但那也已经是事实...只能说自己很笨...但从今天开始...我会带着自己过去勇敢的走下去的...要谢谢身边的朋友...因为你们对我的信任及了解...我觉得很温暖...

有过去的我...

好久都没有写blog了...这个学期都好忙哦...所有的事情都必须在限时的6个星期内完成...结果就弄坏了自己的身子...其实我是因为不开心才上来写blog的...因为真的没有其他可以宣泄此刻心情的管道了...突然觉得自己是一个很不好的人...正在想着...也许有过去的我会得不到好的未来...如果真的是如此的话...我也会接受这个事实...............真的...很不开心...对不起...是我不好.........

海啸---感慨、惋惜...

今天是元宵...derek的mummy叫了我们到他家吃饭...auntie还特地为了我煮了两样素的菜肴...真的要谢谢auntie对我们的照顾...^^
心情在饭后突然变得沉重了...因为在报纸和新闻上看到了智利发生了8.8级的地震...而且海啸会牵涉到其他的亚洲国家...近年来真的发生了太多的灾难了...当我们还在埋怨自己的生活的时候...到底有多少人在和大自然拼搏、求生？？？其实能够平安无事的度过每一天已经是幸福了...为什么我们总是不懂得知足呢？？？为什么人就不能守望相助，反而要尔虞我诈呢？？？希望这场大灾难能够平息...也希望人的心能够懂得知足、珍惜...

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新年要结束了...刚从家乡回来...要开始新的学期了...也是最后一个学期...真的很想把时间停住...因为我不想和大家分开...尤其是静慧...因为她毕业后就会回jb了...到时就很难才能够见面了...我一定会很想她...虽然她很肥...^^
在家里逗留了三个星期...觉得家里永远是最舒服的...因为有很疼我的爸爸、哥哥、弟弟还有婆婆...不懂怎么了...回到家里过后发觉自己的脾气变好了许多...没有那么火爆了...哈哈...也懂得怎么去应对那些奇奇怪怪的人...可能常被爸爸唠叨的关系吧...所以开窍了...真的很爱他...我在临走前还亲了他两次...可以看得出他是很开心的...虽然嘴巴说我很烦...wakaka...所以我要乖乖...不能让他担心我...要长大咯...^^

reborn^^

tis few months was a very difficult period to me... i changed to easily to get mad, emo and a mean person... there was a 'wall' between me & my best fren b4... but i just skip the reason... bcoz oso pass ad... dun wan to create problem again^^... but after that i watched a drama named 'the beauty of the game' i find back my own self... then all the things were back to normal... coz i realised that we cant changed to bad by the 'environment'... no matter wat happened i juz wan to be the 1 who said 'stupid' & 'act kindheart' by other... coz being a bad guy is very suffer for me...^^
tis few days i sot jor... suddenly feel like wanna be tough & muscle... coz wear shirt wil look nicer^^... then keep doing exercise & play badminton&basketball today... then my neck was hurt... wuwuu... pain pain... but very hapi to have tat kind of habit...
i wont think of other... juz try my best treat all the ppl around me gud & stay hapi owez... wanna get back the 'childish heart'...