hapi bday to me... huhu~~~

18/9/09 4.18am

yeah yeah!!! 20 yrs old ad... so hapi tat all of my bez fren celebrate bday for me... we ate at the vege restaurant at lowyat thr... huhu~~~ so nice the food... i ate 2&half large rice... then all the dishes we order were finished... nth left... no waste... then my bday cake cum le... is my favourite cake... fruit flavor... wakaka... we din cut the cake & juz eat wit our forks... huhu~~~ the cake finished in nt even 3 mins leh... so geng lo D4... new record... i reli hapi... very beri hapi... wakaka...

then after bek wangsa we gt 2nd round... yee hao purpusely cum frm kajang & jam for more than 1 hr juz to celebrate my bday... thx alot ya...

we back at 12am... ngam ngam my bday... wakaka... then teera gv me the present tat cover wit a very beri grand box... huhu... she buy a converse wallet and hand made card & frame... when i checking my present then hui, rek & teng suddenly cum in my room... huhu~~~ they all buy ice-cream to celebrate again... tis is the 3rd round lo... coz all of us full le... so cant finished the ice-cream... & then buy me a padini shirt... then we chit chat & watch movie til 4am...

thx ya all my fren... i reli hapi tonite... so touch... hope u all oso hapi tonite... i reli appreciate it...

thx for hui, teera, rek, teng, john, mic, c-ling, cheng, m-siah & yee hao... and oso all the fren tat sms to wish me...

lazly... thx for my parents... coz... i am here bcoz of them... i love u 2 ya... mummy wil owez in my heart de...

moody

many times le.. alot of thing din let me n0e, misunderstand me, dun trust me... i m juz a 'laz minute informed person'... i m juz an extra... hapi bday to me...

hapi bday to me...

finally... finished exam le... huhu... hope can pass all the subject lo... 4 days more... then is my b'day le... 20 yrs old le... kiki... bcum adult liao... my b'day wish is nt to get alot of presents or wat... i juz wish my baba, gor gor & didi healthy and safety all the days... and oso all the ppl around me... all my fren... u all muz hapi ya... i wish tat i can owez bring hapines to u all... and thx 4 u all coz owez support me, sayang me & wori me... i very hapi to b wit u all... bt... we will going to graduate soon le... all of us wil hv our own future & might nt meet each other like nw le... so.. tis might b the laz b'day tat u all celebrate 4 me le... i wil appreciate it de... i love u all... i dun hope anything... juz hope u all hapi owez... promise ya... kiki... feel like wan to cry tim nw... muax... and oso wan to thx 1 of my fren... coz bought coffee for me... kiki...

wuwuu... my toe very pain err... coz gt corn lo... i used knife to cut it.. wakaka... bleeding non-stop juz nw... hope can fast fast recover... very suffer... wan walk fast a bit oso cannot... wuwuu... wear shoe oso pain...

unavailable...

so long din write blog ad... dunn0 y always moody laz few week... erm.. juz like alot of things happened on me... bt nw ok le... juz feel like dun wan dating... coz reli cant find sum1 tat can be trust n no feeling to them... may be i was hurt deeply n nw scare wil gt hurt again... sry to them... i reli cant accept nw... anyway... thx u all coz concern on me... waiting my feel cum bek... bt... hw long??

i m back!!!

depressed for a long time ad... cried before.. din talk to ppl.. very suffer in during tat period... bt nw.. i ok ad... all of my problem i settle ad... thx 4 all of them who always beside me when i suffer... thx alot... i reli appreciate it... and i wan tell all of my fren... i m back... so.. no nid wori abt me.. love u all... today gt 1 ppl scold me... said i 'dun wan lose'... coz i blame tat ppl... coz he din tell me after back home frm hospital... erm.. after tat i gt think back... i gt fault... bcoz juz i too care and wori oni... and he can choose to dun tell me... coz may be he din treat me as 1 of his fren... eveh hw much i concern... i reli sad when i n0e tat... and i oso lazy to argue wit him ad... coz he juz think like he nvr din wrong and all is ppl do bad thing to him... haiz... nvr hear he sry oso... so.. i reli dunn0 is tat ppl gt problem or i gt problem... may b is me lo... wakaka.. bt i dun care ad... coz juz all of the ppl n0e i m nt tat kind of ppl... may b rich ppl is always like tat lo... high class... nvr make mistake... wakaka... i m cheap.. yeah... wish every1 hapi always...

depressed???

12/8/09 2.24am

juz cum back from dinner...din slp laz nite... then took a nap after class at 5 til 10pm... i dreamed abt my mom... then when i first woke up... i tot stil alive... after few second then oni i realized tat was juz a dream... then i went eat wit frens.. i din spread out even 1 word when we eat... then dunn0 y sudedenly my tears coming out.. without any reason... coz my mind was blank tat time some more q was watching a funny movie tat time... i really shock bcoz i oso dunn0 y i wil like tis...tis few weeks really stress and bz... always live in worry... i scare if i keep like tis i wil gt depressed... hw can a ppl cry without any reason.... bt nw.. i m the 1 who did tis... nw gt sore throat ad... coz lack of slp...

很累...

最近都很忙...每一天都坐在电脑面前做功课...看到功课都快要吐了...近乎每一天的睡眠时间都不到四个小时...甚至有时候没有睡...真的很压力...很累...很想有一个我很想得到的依靠...可是...也许大家都有自己要烦的事吧...我找不到那依靠...真的好想家...
这一个礼拜里面都有着许多人对我说他们有喜欢我、多爱我...但是为的就只是要跟我发生关系...要的就是利用我来打发他们无聊的时间...拜托...我不是玩具、不是男妓!!!所以别再烦我!!!还有...我没有装可爱!!!而且我这么难看的人...怎么装也不会可爱...所以没有这个必要...我真的不想再面对任何人了...所以我暂时不会回复你们的信息...对不起...
这一次你陪我坐着...但是我的手心却是空空的...因为我不再主动...但你却...仿佛每一次都是自己主动牵着你的手来把手心填满...不去追问到底为什么...是我对你最后的温柔...以前牵着手的日子...我真的很快乐...可是时间回不去了...