我剩下的资格-祝福...

功课真的很多...但又很懒惰去做...好可怜哦...可能是长熬夜的关系吧...所以生病了...咳嗽咳到连说话都不能大声了...连大笑都不行咧...很痛苦哦...最近常会很容易发飙...可能是环境影响吧...所以都好怀念以前的我哦...
前几天在我的电脑里找到了一首歌...觉得的很有意思的...罗忆诗的《前女友》...因为里面有一段的歌词是那样的...“祝你幸福，也祝他快乐，我只剩下这种资格...我不晓得不甘心什么，该专心当局外者...”第一次听到是就觉得好像在唱给自己听一样...因为我唯一能做的就是祝福他们啊...因为他都不喜欢自己...所以不甘心也是于事无补的啊...所以就突然醒了...不再颓废了...都在做一些自己觉得对自己来说有些些意义的事情...觉得很开心...加油咯...
我爱我的家人和我的朋友...所以不会做笨笨的事的...爱你们...不会再为他留下任何一滴眼泪了...但我珍惜我对他有过的感觉...因为那是真的...希望还能继续当朋友吧...

我只是个白痴...

刚从梦里惊醒...冒了一身的冷汗...在梦里我是多么勇敢向你提问出我在现实里不敢问的事...也说一很多不敢说得话...在梦里...我是哭得多么的悲痛...我并不觉得那很夸张...因为我真的很想你...我真的很喜欢你...但你已经属于另一个人了...不管曾经多努力的去尝试把你忘记...但结果还放不下你...甚至现在的你已有了另一半...我还是一直的眷恋着你...是长情吗???不对...到头来...我只是个白痴...我什么时候才能跳出这个框框呢???曾经以为自己已经对你释怀...但现在才知道...那只是我的以为而已...

不再流泪@棒棒糖

15 oct 2009 6.03am
每天打开抽屉都会看到你曾经买给我的棒棒糖...已经超过半个月了...我都舍不得吃...因为它是我们之间唯一的回忆...因此...它曾经让我流泪...刚才看到你在网上不开心的留言...突然觉得很心疼你...我能做的就只有发信息给予安慰而已...爱上你是最快乐的事...却也换来最痛苦的悲...最近我觉得自己已经可以慢慢的释怀了了...依然喜欢着你...但不会再流泪了...不会再伤悲了...不管遇到什么事...我都会在你身后默默地陪伴着你...支持着你...你不会一个人孤寂...真的很怀念在你身上拥抱的温度...好想在你无助的时候在你的背后紧紧地抱着你...但我深切地知道这个为你打气的动作...永远不会是我能做到的...加油...不要看低自己...你不是没用的家伙...

不曾属于我的拥有...

12/10/09 5.23am
已经一个月了...但我还放不下你...身为朋友的我知道你有男友之后本来应该替你开心的...但我没有...反而有种很心痛的感觉...知道后的我几乎每一天都在眼泪的陪伴下度过...也许你不知道我为你掉过多少眼泪...我想你根本没有兴趣想要知道吧...你跟他应该很快乐吧???连家长都见过了...看来你对他是认真的...曾经说过那永远的兄弟、朋友...如今的我却被遗忘了...现在的我就像是周笔畅“一周年”mv里那个一厢情愿的笨蛋...我真的很想你...但却不敢主动联络你...因为怕你会嫌我烦...更怕如果得不到你的回复时会更加的难过...我真的很喜欢你...脑海里想的都是你...我真的很希望收到卡片的人是我...很希望能再一次坐在你的车子里...希望能再喝到你买的咖啡...希望能再抱着你看到我疲累时特地拿给我的娃娃...希望能听到你的声音...但我知道这些都不可能在实现了...第一次也是最后一次的拥抱...我不想忘记...我好怀念你的体温...但一直以来都只是自己单恋...真心的希望你跟他会幸福、快乐...

hapi bday to me... huhu~~~

18/9/09 4.18am

yeah yeah!!! 20 yrs old ad... so hapi tat all of my bez fren celebrate bday for me... we ate at the vege restaurant at lowyat thr... huhu~~~ so nice the food... i ate 2&half large rice... then all the dishes we order were finished... nth left... no waste... then my bday cake cum le... is my favourite cake... fruit flavor... wakaka... we din cut the cake & juz eat wit our forks... huhu~~~ the cake finished in nt even 3 mins leh... so geng lo D4... new record... i reli hapi... very beri hapi... wakaka...

then after bek wangsa we gt 2nd round... yee hao purpusely cum frm kajang & jam for more than 1 hr juz to celebrate my bday... thx alot ya...

we back at 12am... ngam ngam my bday... wakaka... then teera gv me the present tat cover wit a very beri grand box... huhu... she buy a converse wallet and hand made card & frame... when i checking my present then hui, rek & teng suddenly cum in my room... huhu~~~ they all buy ice-cream to celebrate again... tis is the 3rd round lo... coz all of us full le... so cant finished the ice-cream... & then buy me a padini shirt... then we chit chat & watch movie til 4am...

thx ya all my fren... i reli hapi tonite... so touch... hope u all oso hapi tonite... i reli appreciate it...

thx for hui, teera, rek, teng, john, mic, c-ling, cheng, m-siah & yee hao... and oso all the fren tat sms to wish me...

lazly... thx for my parents... coz... i am here bcoz of them... i love u 2 ya... mummy wil owez in my heart de...

moody

many times le.. alot of thing din let me n0e, misunderstand me, dun trust me... i m juz a 'laz minute informed person'... i m juz an extra... hapi bday to me...

hapi bday to me...

finally... finished exam le... huhu... hope can pass all the subject lo... 4 days more... then is my b'day le... 20 yrs old le... kiki... bcum adult liao... my b'day wish is nt to get alot of presents or wat... i juz wish my baba, gor gor & didi healthy and safety all the days... and oso all the ppl around me... all my fren... u all muz hapi ya... i wish tat i can owez bring hapines to u all... and thx 4 u all coz owez support me, sayang me & wori me... i very hapi to b wit u all... bt... we will going to graduate soon le... all of us wil hv our own future & might nt meet each other like nw le... so.. tis might b the laz b'day tat u all celebrate 4 me le... i wil appreciate it de... i love u all... i dun hope anything... juz hope u all hapi owez... promise ya... kiki... feel like wan to cry tim nw... muax... and oso wan to thx 1 of my fren... coz bought coffee for me... kiki...

wuwuu... my toe very pain err... coz gt corn lo... i used knife to cut it.. wakaka... bleeding non-stop juz nw... hope can fast fast recover... very suffer... wan walk fast a bit oso cannot... wuwuu... wear shoe oso pain...